"I told everyone that you were real. I told my best friends. I told my doctors. But I couldn't prove it. You came and you didn't stay. You wouldn't reply or pickup calls. I was so broken I eventually had to tell myself that you were an illusion. I had to tell everyone that I lied."
Lain orang lain otak, lain badan, lain latarbelakang, lain pengalaman. One pandemic has different impacts on different people. Mental, emotional, physical, social, financial capability & capacity kita tak sama. BE KIND. JANGAN PUKUL RATA. Tak semua kuat dan tak semua lemah. You do you.
Sebagai karyawan, saya suka untuk faham warna-warni audiens. Ada pembaca yang suka tulisan saya, ada yang tidak. Ada pendengar yang suka muzik saya, ada yang tidak. Itu OK. Dan OK juga untuk saya menghasil karya yang kadang bagus, kadang kurang bagus. Kerana sebelum karyawan, saya manusia.
I'm glad I was done chasing perfection in terms of creative work the moment I hit thirty. My 20s was wasted on insecurely competing with people... I decided I don't wanna do that anymore. Since then I have found more peace and enjoyment. My priority now is for my art to grow; not for it to be great.
Terlalu banyak berfikir membuat kita kurang merasa. Terlalu banyak merasa membuat kita kurang berfikir. Sangat penting bagi saya- kesederhanaan dan keseronokan dalam berkarya. As years passed by, growth and consistency matters more to me as an artist. More than greatness and likeability.
"I'm happy for you. Happy to know that you're now a biological dad. Something you could never be if you stayed with me... because I don't have the capability. But it's okay. You've always wanted your own child. It's perfectly understandable. I know you will be an amazing father."