Terima kasih, Pitahati, untuk ruh dan rasa yang senyap dipinjamkan ke saya yang kecil ini. Terima kasih untuk 4 tahun inspirasi. Mudah-mudahan satu hari nanti saya juga mampu capai ke tempat yang telah awak sampai. :)
It is always heartwarming to see your students go to places, either writing or performing, sharing or creating, basically just reaching their dreams, living the life, and doing things that make them happy. I was a full-time lecturer from 2008 till 2015. It was during these years that I gained sisters and brothers, daughters and sons, more than I could handle to be honest. To this day, they still send me letters, visit me at home, bring me out for tea, and text me almost daily. I am more of a learner than a teacher, maybe that's why they turn to me for a listener - I'm not sure. Anyhow, my kids are amazing. And they're capable of doing amazing things. I want them to know that because I think they don't know it enough.
This is the longest time I'll be leaving Ipoh since I moved here 4 months ago. Half of me is feeling melancholic while the other half of me is panicking. Rasa nak buat semua benda yang biasa saya buat hari-hari dalam satu hari ini. Takut rindu.
Running a bed & breakfast and a home boutique in Ipoh while being a writer-performer is one of the best decisions I've ever made in my life. Sure I work my ass off every day and night to pay bills, but I am also a vacationer and an explorer in this peaceful old town I call home. I don't plan to live here forever though, which makes me appreciate my time here even more. No 24-hour goe...
Kurang seminggu lagi saya bakal berpentas di sini, sebagai pemuisi-pemuzik Malaysia di bumi Indonesia, sebagai seorang Wani Ardy. Semoga Maha Pengkarya restui.
Sharing via WIEF Foundation:
Besides David Gunn, Wani Ardy of the famed band from Malaysia Wani Ardy & the Guitar Polygamy will also be playing at MOCA Fest 2016's Soundscape Concert at the 12th WIEF in Jakarta , Indonesia. The band is fast achieving their full potential and has been touring around Malaysia to promote their brand of music.
Marrying the tender, melodic toughness of her early singer/songwriter influences (KT Tunstall, Missy Higgins, Nick & Liesl to name a few) with trippier, slanted fare (recent influences include Sia, Filastine, and Portishead), the upcoming record Raskat is already shaping up to be as eclectic and potentially peerless in its own right; Gelombang Dasar Laut is trip hop with heavy Javanese overtones slathered with feedback and noise, Gula Melaka is poetry...
Every now and then, there will be people who make you feel down, like you're lower or lesser than the person you really are.
These people don't need to be strangers to come up with hurtful words. They can be your family, your bestie, your roommate, your classmate, your teacher or even your partner.
People who are close to you have thousands of ways to belittle you because they know your stories and your history, your weaknesses and your fears. They know how to cut open your scars and turn them into wounds, again and again and again.
Sometimes it reaches a point where you feel tired of trying to do the right thing, and struggling to not feel like a failure or a loser because in the end of the day, what you do or who you are will never be enough in the eyes of the person who downgrades you.
While it is best to muhasabah diri and reflect, it is also equally important to remind ourselves from time to time that the words of humans do not define us.
Stop giving power to people... to break us. Sta...
While everybody in Ipoh is either feverish or fluish, I fell down the stairs at my own home and probably tore some tissue/muscle. (which is weird because I've been working out like crazy since right after raya and I haven't had any injury whatsoever)
SAKIT GILA *cries*
However, this pain is good to distract me from some scary facts that are freaking me out and making me panic every time I think of them...
1) I am just 5 days away from the KL gig and I haven't practiced.
2) I am just 8 days away from the Jakarta gig and I haven't practiced.
3) I am just 6 days away from August which will be the deadline of my Orang Kecil manuscript.
It's Sunday and I have so many things to complete because tomorrow will be Monday and not just any Monday but Monday with all sorts of deadlines but oh lord I am so tired I can't feel my legs and I ate too much pulut dodol help me.
Okay I can't cook mee bandung 'cause there were ingredients I just can't seem to find and I've always hated cooking with missing ingredients 'cause sometimes I'm an annoying cerewet perfectionist and this is the time and so I cooked mee kari for today's raya potluck party though I hated the fact that I had cooked butter chicken masala for last month's ramadhan potluck party which obviously has daun kari in it and here I am with another curry dish wth I don't wanna look like I love curry 'cause I don't no not really but curry loves me it seems 'cause my butter chicken masala was a killer and now my mee kari is the bomb omg why am I good at cooking curries?!