When I was a young girl, I was really bad at math and science (still am). Initially, those were the only two subjects that I was bad at, but through my little eyes they seemed like everything, like they were the only subjects that truly matter, and so I felt really small... and stupid. I was told that I was slow and dumb; a loser with a bleak future. I got beaten up for failing exams and failing to memorize my multiplication tables. I started to fall back in other subjects as well and went from number 2 in primary school to number 32 in high school. I questioned myself everyday- "why am I not getting it like the rest?" I slept every night secretly hating myself, academic-wise. I became that girl who felt disgusted by her stupid self and was ashamed of carrying her brain around.
Today I wish that back then someone would tell me that imagination is not silly. That all these voices and melodies in my head is not a sign that I'm crazy. That creativity could be another form of intelligence...
Thought I'd share my next project with you! :) Kalau tahun 2015 & 2016 adalah tahun The Creative Co, insya-Allah tahun 2017 & 2018 adalah tahun Koleseni Ipoh. (Maybe it'll stretch longer? Who knows kan?)
Every now and then, Fafa, Arriff, and I have been giving informal private lessons to youngsters, with Fafa on doodling, Arriff on singing, and yours truly on writing. Koleseni is basically us tutors coming together and making it official. (Our qualifications and experiences are on fb.com/koleseni.ipoh 'cause we understand how parents need to be convinced sometimes! Dah selalu kena sebelum ini sebab wajah kami kebudak-budakan walaupun usia tak begitu muda lol)
If you live around Ipoh and you wish to learn how to doodle/sing/write, do contact us on Facebook. Details are there. Fees are very affordable and we're flexible in terms of date, time, and venue. Class is just an hour a week, pick any subject, and we'll tailor the lesson according to your needs...
The 3rd Annual Gathering of MRKH Malaysia & 1st Collaboration With The Obstetrics & Gynecology Unit of PPUKM
Thank you to Prof. Amy, Prof. Azurah, Dr. Harizah, Dr. Anizah, and the rest of the O&G team for your study, your research, your support, and your understanding. We are so grateful and honoured to have you on board.
Thank you to my MRKH sisters for your time, your dedication, your honesty, and your opinions. This isn't just about us anymore- we are now helping other girls as well; the next generation of Malaysia's MRKH women.
MRKH Syndrome is a congenital disorder that happens to 1 in every 5000 women all around the world where girls were usually born without a uterus and/or without a vagina, leading to other issues related to the kidneys, bones, and hearing, subsequently affecting their mental and physical health.
Woke up this morning still feeling so very disappointed that last night I didn't get to share my poems/songs in the form which I have arranged and prepared. Weeks of finding the right feel, composing the right melody, struggling to lock down the chords, practicing with whatever time I had left- only to find myself on stage empty handed, as the string of my guitar decided to break right before my performance. And so I sang with just my soul as my music. Begitulah. Kadang kita beriya, tapi kalau belum rezeki dia untuk jadi, maka tak jadilah juga. Jadinya mungkin lusa di ruang yang berbeza. Sementara itu telanlah pahit kegagalan, moga-moga terasa manisnya pengajaran.
Yesterday, one of my school friends lost her 3 day-old child. 9 months through pregnancy and the baby came out perfectly beautiful, then off she went into God's heavenly arms. Just 3 days old. I could hardly sleep after hearing the news. Hours later it rained and I found myself crying while driving, imagining myself in her place. As I age, I realize I have more and more girlfriends who experience stillbirth or miscarriage, sometimes again and again, and the strength of these ladies amazes me.
I don't know how you girls do it. I don't know how did you survive going through such difficult test. In my late teens, when the doctor announced that I have an organ missing and I can never get pregnant- saya terduduk. It felt like all the babies in my dreams have died all at once. When I was trying to adopt, thrice, and I was already on my way to pick up my babies and bring them home, dengan barang dah siap, berminggu berbulan dah berangan, then suddenly they said my babies had been taken- saya...
Sharing this 'cause I receive writing samples every week! I'm sorry I can't speak on behalf of companies I have no relation with. Tak manis. :)
Submitting manuscripts isn't just about emailing. First, RESEARCH on the publishing companies. Lain syarikat penerbitan, lain gaya/tujuan. Kadang karya ditolak bukan sebab tak bagus, tapi tak kena dengan gaya/halatuju mereka.
Get to know them & their books. Find out what they're looking for, what the market's like. The moment you decide on getting published, it isn't just about you anymore. Like everything that needs balance, you'll have to juggle 'em all into consideration- pembaca, penerbit, apa awak nak tulis.
SELUT BOOKS is an online bookstore that houses many publications i.e. Sang Freud Press (penerbit buku² saya), Selut Press, Perfect Binding, & Roman Buku. Each has different styles/aims, so figure that out before sending in.
RIPTA is a baby company that produces creative work; books...