"We didn't break up. We never started."

How convenient.

You came here, you told me you loved me, you showed me you loved me, you made me feel the same way for you, and then just like that, you walked away, you left, you began a new life, you thought I was okay, you believed I had enough to make me happy, you assumed I was alright because I had all these people around me when I only had one in my mind, oh how convenient.

How convenient that now you're there, all fine and well while I'm here, year after year, still wracking my brains out trying to forget those moments when my cold hand was warm in yours, desperately lying to myself, telling myself they're just illusions when truly, every memory is as real as any scar on my body.

W

How careless could I be to read this article 7 months late? Thank you very much, eksentrika.com, for putting me among these wonder women. Am humbled and honoured. So much to do, so much to learn.

Christina Ruth, this is for you. 

http://eksentrika.com/10-malaysian-mamas-who-art-with-heart/

Note: MRKH Syndrome is a congenital disorder that happens to 1 in every 5000 women all around the world where girls were usually born without a uterus and/or without a vagina, leading to other issues related to the kidneys, bones, and hearing, subsequently affecting their mental and physical health.

IMPORTANT NOTE FOR READERS IN KL AND SELANGOR (you know I don't use capital letters unless it's really important):

Acara seni #WikenKL sedang berlangsung hari ini hingga Ahad di Sunway Putra Mall. Buku saya dan kawan-kawan dijual di booth Selut Books, iaitu:

1) IKHLAS: An Illustrated Memoir of Conversations, published by RIPTA, illustrations by Kullest Fafa, stories by Wani Ardy 
KENAPA MESTI BELI: Ada diskaun khas untuk tiga hari ini saja. RM30 instead of the usual RM35. Kalau awak beli dengan saya, saya tak dapat beri diskaun gini. Jujur.

2) UNTUK YANG TELAH PERGI: Antologi Prosa & Puisi, terbitan RIPTA, karya Adi Wafi, Elyas Siddiq, Mosyuki Borhan, Para Jamaludin, Wani Ardy 
KENAPA MESTI BELI: Antologi prosa & puisi "bestseller" 2016. Ini stok terakhir. Diulangi - ini stok terakhir.

3) MESIN CAHAYA MASA: Himpunan Prosa & Puisi, terbitan Selut Books, karya Wani Ardy
KENAPA MESTI BELI: Selut Books sedang adakan promosi 4 buku RM50. Hingga 7 Oktober saja! Biasanya 1 buku...

Ada kebun kebun buah
yang tidak pernah dilihat bentuknya
tetapi lazat selazat lazatnya

ada ladang ladang madu
yang tidak dapat diketahui jenisnya
tetapi nikmat senikmat nikmatnya

dituai sebagai firdaus
hasil tanaman Tuhan
yang berbunga di wajahmu
jauh sebelum kau lahir
menjadi bayi susu pekat manis.

Wani Ardy

Inspirasi daripada laporan Syed Azmi.

Jika anda MASIH tidak tahu apa itu CQ Malaysia, anda patut tahu. This baby is Malaysia's free, online, bilingual creative writing magazine which has been read and downloaded by readers all over the world. Setakat ini kami semua (saya salah seorang 'Editors In Chief' - tapi hampeh) masih tidak mengerjakan majalah ini demi keuntungan; segalanya atas usahasama sukarela. Despite all odds, we have come to our 4th year and 8th edition. Anda perlu lihat sendiri edisi-edisi CQ Malaysia di https://issuu.com/cqmag. It really does feel like National Geographic slash Reader's Digest, which makes you think - how the heck is this thing for free? Gila. Memang gila. WAJIB BACA.

Every other day

I will always come back 

to the thought of you

the same feeling since two thousand & fourteen

not realizing years have passed through

Moving on has never been my thing

as every other day

I always seem to return

to the memories of a man

whose heart has belonged to someone else.

"O Allah! You are the everlasting and eternal One, and this is the new year. I am supplicating to You for protection and safety from the devil and his companions, and seek help and victory against those who command to do evil against the soul. I ask for help in remaining busy in deeds which will bring me closer to You, O Merciful Lord. And Allah, the Most Exalted, bless our Master Muhammad (SAW) and his family and companions and grant them peace."

Salam Awal Muharram and Happy New Year. Sempena hari bermakna ini, saya ada pengumuman kecil yang hendak diwar-warkan. We have been keeping this to ourselves, waiting to exclusively tell you today. Mulai hari ini, Wani Ardy & the Guitar Polygamy akan bergerak menggunakan nama akronim kami (singkatan kepada nama sebelum ini), iaitu WIDYA. Muziknya sama, ahlinya serupa, cuma nama saja diringkaskan untuk kemudahan semua. Coincidentally, in Javanese, which is my root language, WIDYA means truth and knowledge. Sebagaimana puisi saya- saya selalu usahakan dari kejujuran hati, peristiwa yang benar terjadi, serta pengetahuan dan pengalaman peribadi. Semoga tahun baru dan nama baru ini membawa kebaikan buat kami bertujuh. Insyaallah. Salam tahun baru dari WIDYA!

#muzikwidya
bit.ly/muzikwidya

Nota: 211 kes kebakaran di pelbagai sekolah tahfiz seluruh negara dalam masa 2 tahun-- is UNACCEPTABLE.

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Burung Nyala

terbang dari pohon ketentuan

lalu mendarat di rumah ilmu

menghinggapi tubuh mungilmu

membalut kulitmu dan memeluk dagingmu

kepedihan sementara--

sementara ia bablas lagi

cuma kali ini 

dibawa sekalian dirimu

rapi dalam rangkulan sayapnya

ke taman yang paling nyaman

ke kebun yang paling redup

kerinduan sementara--

sementara orang tuamu

tiba dengan senyum.

Wani Ardy

Wani Ardy & the Guitar Polygamy will be playing in KL this weekend! Bukan selalu kami turun kota, malah lebih jarang lagi lengkap 7 ahli begini. Jumpa Sabtu nanti ya? Kami berpentas jam 8.30 malam. Kita sambut Hari Malaysia sama-sama. Berterima kasihlah pada KL LePark untuk acara seni yang percuma ini. Save and spread the date!