Okay

It will always hurt.

I am coming to terms with that fact.

It will always hurt.

I should not count on time to cure and heal me. I should not hope for this anguish to pass. I should not expect tomorrow to be better. I should not put a pressure on things to be okay.

Maybe it's okay for things to not be okay. Maybe it's okay to feel like shit. Maybe it's okay to feel like shit and not fully understand why I feel like shit.

Maybe it's okay for things to never be the same again. Ever.

I'm okay. Not my first time dying, anyway.