Penat / Putus

Two weeks ago, when I was giving a talk at a local uni about the importance of dreaming and surviving the reality, somebody raised a question: "Have you ever felt like giving up?"

Though I answered right away, the question lingers around my head even till today, like a valuable lesson still in digestion (surprisingly through a question instead of an answer).

Awak. Takda hari yang saya rasa tak penat. Penat yang amat. And that's the thing- most of the time, kita rasa penat sebenarnya. Bukan kita putus asa. Cumanya, kita rasa penat sangat sampai jadi keliru. Adding up to that, a few people who matter to you are not being as understanding or supportive as you hope they would be. Like, "come on lah, benda ni dah cukup susah kot, I have come this far, at least jangan ah down kan the spirit, tak payahlah demotivate aku with your harsh words, kau bukan stranger, kau somebody close kot..."

Hmm.

Sebenarnya kalau sungguhlah kita putus asa, kita tinggal ja benda tu, awak. There and then. Bila dah terdetik dan tekad, memang dan dan itu juga kita blah. Tak ada fikir fikir dah. Kalau bertahun duk fikir fikir, nak berhenti ke tak nak, nak buat benda lain ke tak nak, itu bukan momen putus asa. Itu momen penat. Kenapa penat? Because you wanna do and give your best. Why do you wanna do and give your best? Because you have love and passion and interest. That's why. Without these, you won't give the slightest damn. Let alone putting effort.

So for now, let's go back to that. Okay Wani?